best buddy but..

what would you think or what would u probably act when your best buddy seemed like running away/ avoiding u/ do nothing (wat bodo) whenever it relates to some sensitive issues e.g: money? 

recently i faced this condition where me, and other 3 besties agreed to pay kind of bond-agreement between one of the communication government agencies somewhere in Malaysia.

we were just moved to a new place for a couple of months (studying matter). everything was done with  positive agreements. tasks were assigned justly. every materials bought were spent evenly. 

sound pretty fair and that part was totally okay. 

until one day we signed the contract form and agreed to install this streamyx in the house. 

since we spent so much time working, we didn't fully utilize the streamyx. 

as a consequences, we've got to pay every single bills coming every month. there was no way to terminate the line and pay as far until the current month we were in. since we have accepted the terms and condition, so there's no escape. even if we could terminate, we still have to pay the penalty as much as the whole contract period counted.

 it took almost 2 years asking their part of money. yes, almost 2 years this 'hutang' burdened me and all the responsibilities were on my shoulders. some of us had no probs taking out money. but this one particular buddy, seemed couldn't be brought for negotiation. mumbled. and started to keep distance from me.

the agency people kept calling me. as for warning letters? uncountable. i have begged that particular buddy and reminded how this situation really bother me. but every text messages regarding that issue had a negative feedback. 

until one day, a man introduced himself a lawyer from a law agency in KL. he would bring this issue up and present a court letter to me if i couldn't clear all bills by tomorrow afternoon! arghhh! 

i got less than 24 hours! i immediately texted that particular buddy, again. as usual, a great disappointment. 

i just didn't have a clue how the way that particular buddy thinks. didn't that particular buddy feel guilty or anything? this matter relates money. and for me, that was a big amount. it was not of ringgits, but hundreds. and that amount was that particular buddy's part.

personally, i am aware of this owing issue. i don't like owing myself to a friend who needed money. i would as much as i could to repay back once i got enough to pay them. this occurs vice versa. this is serious issue. any owing issues would be brought until the end of the life.

 it will be counted there. sigh*.

i paid the bill using my own for that particular buddy. i texted that particular buddy soon after the payment, hoping that, that particular buddy concerns my tight condition. but received no reply.

alhamdulillah i am still here. not in cell or something.
(couldn't imagine how it's like if i didn't manage to pay the bill off). 

thinking it back, why this happened to me. did i do the same to any other friends previously? did i hurt somebody? i believe perhaps i did it unconsciously. and if it's true, i'm sorry for those who've been hurt.
but above all this, i believe that He has planned a good track for me and all i have to do is 'redha'. 

semua ini ada hikmahnya. i believe He wants to help me by first, giving this small test. 

i should sow my heart a good intention, make it as sedekah. yes aku redha.
maybe that particular buddy was/is facing something hard that particular buddy couldn't bear. who knows.
i don't know. 

and thus, i should not be overjudge. 

i believe, if that particular buddy realize this, that particular buddy will always be my best buddy ever.